Life has taken me on a roller coaster in the last year. I left Canada and gave myself one year in my home country in Mauritius. A cycle ended and life directed me here to start a new one. I did not know what was in store for me all I knew was I was about to enter a new phase. Start a new cycle in my life.
Before I left Canada I went through a crisis, a whole lot was happening. A failed business, failed relationships on all levels, despair and depression was staring at me in the face. To what I thought would be the end of the world, ended up being fun. I was starting to learn the meaning of living a good life unconditionally and it reflected in the paintings was creating. What seemed to be a dark abyss in my head, I realized that if I waited for my environment to change for me to see light again, I would be waiting forever for the light that guided me upto this point was no longer shining. I had to rise above it all in my heart, mind and soul. I accepted my failures, my shortcomings and learned to be compassionate with myself, I am only human. I tested myself and I was happy with the resilience I cultivated and the faith I had and still growing.
I came to Mauritius broken and happy I was curious what would come next. I came here to rest and recharge, if I kept going the way I was, I probably would have lost my mind. I reconnected with an old flame, someone I always had at the back of my head since I was a teenager but never really paid attention, being with him seemed like the most natural thing to do. I have learned to love and the hardest part was to accept being loved, which now I am understanding is an art in itself. After a while I accepted to marry him and with that a whole new world was opening up to me. The biggest most humbling part of all this was learning how much family and community matters to ones well being. But its not always rainbows and sunshine, we all know being around so many people so closely can be very intense, but that intensity teaches to love and accept unconditionally.
In my upbringing as a baha'i I have been taught that the institution marriage is the cornerstone of society, it is platform for expression, for love, for family, it is a fortress of well being. I have been alone for a long time and that period of my life served its purpose, accepting to share my life with someone was something and despite my positive education on marriage, being in it was different. I was faced yet again with my shortcomings and it was time for a change this time I chose not to run away. With this new life, brings hope. I have chosen to let go of what I once knew to build something for myself and generations to come after us. This little speck of hope in all the chaos is what makes it more interesting. Its new, its fresh and its vitalizing.
Having a companion is far more beautiful than I what I expected. Its work, I have to admit. Any human relationship has to be nurtured, just like water cannot rise above its own level, relationships are the same. It becomes what we feed them. I am looking forward to more adventures, more lessons, more ups and downs, good times and bad times and see what it has to teach and inspire me. This time I know I am not alone. I am mostly looking forward to how my paintings and creations will evolve as I do. This painting entitled Hope is a reflection of new beginnings where all that was is contributing to the blessings that is to come. I wish to thank my parents, my brother, my extended family and my new family: new parents and siblings.